Ten years since I've held my third son. Ten long hard years. Whats more is who knows how many more I have left to go, until I will see him again. Talk about a heartbreaking way to learn patience! When i was pregnant with Levi, there was a verse that continued to perplex and trouble me. James 1:2 Consider it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. On the day when I thought I would never feel joy again, I did. When I was at the very bottom of despair, I looked up and realized all hope was not lost. Levi was not dead. My son is alive and he is with Jesus and not only that my friends but that I will see him again ONLY BECAUSE God gave up His son to die would I now be able to forever be with my beautiful baby. Talk about JOY! I finally understood, comprehended and experienced first hand that verse that had trouble me for so long.
Fast forward ten years to today. I am reading a book called, A Call to Die, by David Nasser. Its broken down into 40 days. Each day begins with a verse that the following story expounds on. I took that book and my Bible to the cemetery and sat down in the grass above my baby's name. I opened the book and decided to go on and read tomorrow's day because I wanted a fresh word. May I tell you that the words leapt off of the page at me. God is amazingly personal and He cares more about us and our pain more than we could ever imagine. Here is proof. The verse that I read was.... James 1:2 Consider it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. WOW! I think God was saying, " ten years , Wow! Keep going daughter, you can do it! God , thank you for building my trust in YOU over these last ten years! YOU Abba, deserve the best , thank you for always being there and and protecting me. Ate Logo Levi!
